So what, it's been like a year since I've write anything here, huh?
It's not like I went anywhere...no, I didn't
Life just... happens...
Well actually work happens. Mostly work and then a little bit of life
I must say this about adulthood though
First there's this:
And after a while there's this:
In conclusion, in short, I think Admiral Ackbar knows what's up:
and that he's been trying to warn us a long time ago... We're sorry we didn't listen, Admiral!!
WE'RE SORRRYYYYYY!!!!
(and of course now you also know that I've spent too much time on the Internets)
Despite that... despite my daily life as a computer slave, I've decided to do something about it. Somewhere deep in my mind a little voice keeps telling me that I'm not taking any of this shit anymore.
I am fed. up.
Imagine, spending all day clicking buttons, looking at monitors, reading, typing, editing, listening to customers whose requests can only be made possible by the Lord Almighty, and the stress.
The stress and the utterly heartbreaking realization that this is your life. It's ending one second at a time and you're just sitting there.
(and also partly my obsession with Fight Club)
I feel doomed.
This is not what I want. This is NOT what I envisioned.
Of course I'm not saying that nobody deserves what they want, it's just that if I still have a choice, I sure am not going to choose being a cubicle zombie for the rest of my life.
So I made a choice
A risky and overly confident choice: I'm quitting.
It's scary thinking of it right now... Because like it or not MONEY is in the picture. And I don't want to be any burden to my parents anymore
Nothing is clear right now... To be honest I'm not sure what to do right after...
I am actually thinking about taking my Master's. Let's see how that goes :)
(am thinking of New Zealand... for all the wrong reasons.... like salmons and Hobbiton)
I don't even know why I write this, just need to get it out, maybe
And I'm nervous, scared, excited, and anxious at the same time. It's a weird combination of feelings to be having
So then I bid you all good night. Have no more mind to spill nor the energy to do so
(Plus I put images in, so stop whining!)
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| Because Chuck Palahniuk is such a BADASS |
