A Not so Jazzy Muse

Java Jazz Festival has always been a treat!

Been going since 2006... Dulu masih sepiii, di JCC, ga se-semrawut sekarang hahaha
Not a really fan of the hustlin bustlin and making my way through people :p

Can't really remember when exactly I started liking jazz
My Dad and Mom are two people who can't live without them
I sometimes ecall hearing old songs, knowing the music, tapi ga inget lirik atau judulnya

And Dad has always been a great Jarreau-Benson devotee, so mungkin nangkep2 dikit dari situ ya

First jazz album was Incognito's Positivity, lungsuran almarhum abang
Swear to God, SETIAP PAGI di mobil sepanjang perjalanan ke sekolah (itu kelas berapa yah? SD sih seinget gw, kelas 3/4 kali ya) I would put that cassette in my Walkman (lungsuran dari manusia yang sama btw... Bahahahaha!), pump the volume so loud, I block everything our terus NYANYI teriak2 berusaha nyamain suaranya Maysa, THE Diva :p
Kasian bokap gw aja sih... Bertahun-tahun setiap pagi nganter ke sekolah begitu

Kayaknya sejak itu deh I realy fell in love
The form, the melody, the improv, how free-flow it is

You can literally jump to another song in the middle of a song and back again, and everything will sound absolutely BEAUTIFUL
And the scat!!! Oh how I love scat singing! They're just awesome
Have NO IDEA how to do it, but absolutely ADORE it :D

I think we need to appreciate art a little more, apalagi di Indonesia sama musisi lokalnya
Karena kayaknya (menurut pribadi saya yah) cuma itu yang akhirnya memisahkan kita sama mesin
The ability to create and appreciate art
*memeluk otak sendiri*

We need to explore more of our brain!! Bet there're TONS of crazy secrets hidden in there, you amazing gray matter you!

I'm sorry for not writing anything too insightful today
Tenaga habis Ciledug-Polumas-Ciledug *tewas*

Hey, a girl gotta make a living ;)

See y'all! *smooch*

Created with All the Energy I Have Left. Read It.

Hello, Blog!

So what, it's been like a year since I've write anything here, huh?
It's not like I went anywhere...no, I didn't

Life just... happens...
Well actually work happens. Mostly work and then a little bit of life

I must say this about adulthood though

First there's this:

And after a while there's this:

In conclusion, in short, I think Admiral Ackbar knows what's up:

and that he's been trying to warn us a long time ago... We're sorry we didn't listen, Admiral!!

WE'RE SORRRYYYYYY!!!!

(and of course now you also know that I've spent too much time on the Internets)

Despite that... despite my daily life as a computer slave, I've decided to do something about it. Somewhere deep in my mind a little voice keeps telling me that I'm not taking any of this shit anymore. 

I am fed. up.

Imagine, spending all day clicking buttons, looking at monitors, reading, typing, editing, listening to customers whose requests can only be made possible by the Lord Almighty, and the stress.

The stress and the utterly heartbreaking realization that this is your life. It's ending one second at a time and you're just sitting there. 

(and also partly my obsession with Fight Club)

I feel doomed.

This is not what I want. This is NOT what I envisioned.

Of course I'm not saying that nobody deserves what they want, it's just that if I still have a choice, I sure am not going to choose being a cubicle zombie for the rest of my life.

So I made a choice

A risky and overly confident choice: I'm quitting.

It's scary thinking of it right now... Because like it or not MONEY is in the picture. And I don't want to be any burden to my parents anymore

Nothing is clear right now... To be honest I'm not sure what to do right after...

I am actually thinking about taking my Master's. Let's see how that goes :)

(am thinking of New Zealand... for all the wrong reasons.... like salmons and Hobbiton)

I don't even know why I write this, just need to get it out, maybe

And I'm nervous, scared, excited, and anxious at the same time. It's a weird combination of feelings to be having

So then I bid you all good night. Have no more mind to spill nor the energy to do so

(Plus I put images in, so stop whining!)

Because Chuck Palahniuk is such a BADASS

Insomnia merajalela!!

Okay, I admit it…gue orangnya sangat,sangat jarang nonton berita…apalagi setelah gue punya cable…gue hampir GA PERNAH nonton TV dalam negeri lagi (coz honestly…I don’t find anything compelling to watch there anyway), jadilah gue tenggelam dalam dunia gue sendiri yang terjebak di antara Discovery Channel sama National Geographic (yes, I’m a geek, but whatever)

*I’m writing this at 2.30 am with Meriam Belina wearing a wig that is soo gigantic, the whole seven generations of birds could use it as a nest

…jadi berarti gue dapet berita Mbah Surip meninggal telatlah yaaa…ya ga telat2 bgt sih, gue tau sorenya, tapi itu bahkan dikasi tau mbak gue pas dia lagi nyapu dan gue berleseh2 nonton dua channel andalan itu (no, actually gue kayaknya lagi nonton The Simpsons malah :P ). Dia tiba2 ngomong aja kalo Mbah Surip meninggal tadi pagi jam 11…gue kaget..bingung aja gitu…that guy just got super rich and all, but he died…isn’t that sarcastic or what?!
Later (well, actually just now, at 2.30 am…), gue ngeliat berita dan ternyata anaknya yang ketiga ngadain nikahannya pas Mbah Surip dikuburin…I mean right in front of his grave man…

And, honestly I dunno bout you guys, but I found that kinda…sick.

What sort of people who’d marry in front of their own Dad’s grave, right after he’s being buried?! (ga tau sih ya ini bener apa ga, tapi pasangan ini nikah di depan kuburannya dia dan suasananya tampak sekali kalo Mbah Suripnya baru dikuburin, masih byk yang histeris pingsan2 cakar2 tanah)

Honestly…gue ga ngerti maksudnya ini semua apa…I mean, CAN’T U GUYS WAIT?? Are you guys really wanna f*ck each other THAT BAD that u two HAD to get married the second after the bride’s father funeral?? (ok, now I’m being rude, but hey…u’re reading this anyway)
I mean…come on…seriously…I don’t see the logic in all that.

Terus abis ijab-qabul pengantinnya pingsan…whatthehell?! There are limits for publicity stunts u know…

…or maybe it’s the old guy’s dying wish to see his 3rd daughter gets married?

I’m trying to be logic here…senyentrik apapun seseorang, kayaknya sulit ngebayangin seorang AYAH bilang ke PUTRINYA “Nak, Bapak pengen bgt liat kamu nikah…tapi kalo ternyata Bapak ga umur, kamu mau nikah pas Bapak dikuburin?”

Ga kebayang sama gue. Ga keproses.

*ini lagi cewe di TPI...if I ever saw her in a cheap x-rated movie, I wouldn’t be surprised.

Itu bukannya agak jahat ya? Maksud gue, Wedding Day SHOULD be the happiest day in a person’s life dan seharusnya bukan tugas seorang Bapak buat ngejungkirbalikin hari terindah putrinya, itu bisa dikasih buat mantan pacar/tunangan yang iri dan menyesal, or a b*tchy friend…
Yang mau gue ungkapkan hanyalah (karena ini terdiri dari pernyataan dan pertanyaan) :

1. Why are u guys doing this?? Seriously…

2. Is it a publicity stunt? Coz if it is…you’re pushing it, TOTALLY pushing it.

3. Mungkin mereka berusaha menghormati sang almarhum ato apa ya…maybe it’s some tradition that I don’t know about…I’m nobody to judge, but hey, lo ga bisa bener2 objektif dalam hidup, kalo gitu buat apa kita punya perasaan? Jdi gue mau subjektif sedikit dengan tulisan gue ini. Dan dari pandangan gue yang subjektif ini gue ngeliat ketidakberesan…something’s off in their heads, I don’t know what, but I found this a little bit irrational and inhumane and stuff and stuff and stuff etc, gue ga tau gimana cara ngungkapinnya lagi, mudah2an lo ngerti :P

4. (totally irrelevant) why won’t guys go for smart, witty girls first?? And why guys always gets a girl no matter how ugly they look, but not with girls? What’s with that? Karena yang gue liat adalah : cowok selalu ngejar cewek yang cantik dulu dan liat ntar dia IQnya tenggelam ato apa, yang penting dia cantik jadi harus dikejar, kalo ternyata retarded yaudah tinggalin, padahal ada cewek yang biasa2 aja, tapi si cowok tau dia cukup cerdas dan berisi (omongannya) dan cowok ini kenal BAIK sama si cewek bermuka biasa2 aja ini. Akhirnya saat si cowok ini tahu kalo si cantik itu rada2 geblek, (mungkin) dia memutuskan untuk ngejar si cewek yang biasa2 aja tapi berpendidikan ini, tapi si cewek ini udah terlanjur ilang kemana tau dlm keadaan sakit hati…dan semuanya terlambat. What. A. Drama. But it’s happening…seriously…I saw this happens everywhere!

*(yeah I’m blabbering...it’s 3.17 am dan gue belum ngantuk sedikit pun, ato gue terlalu celeng untuk nyadar kalo gue udah ngantuk)

Thanx for reading this bullcrap anyway…entah kenapa lo masih tahan ampe sini…haha! Appreciate it anyway ;)

P.S : ‘Zack and Miri Make A Porno’ is by far the CUTEST, SWEETEST, and the SMARTEST movie about porn that I ever saw. Totally recommended!! X)

*”Jangan kak, jangan bilang ke Ayah kalo aku gini…Jangan bilang ke Ayah kalo aku hamil!” (tebaklah sendiri kawan) :P