The Question

Greetings, fake-plastic-but-utterly-cute chickies! :D

How do we get on with this here? Gw selalu bingung nyari kalimat pembuka buat ginian, that's why it always ended up awkward and tacky --'

Anyways! Bought some new books! YEAY!!

1. The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy, which was ultimate fun and utter pointlessness (haha!). I love you Douglas Adams! His jokes is just SOO me! Sarcastic because the guy is just too witty in a very quirky way
2. Trainspotting, i'm a bit influenced by the movie...haven't watched it, heard it was 'best british movie ever', so I just kinda go for it...haha! haven't started reading it, but i love the book design 
3. A Clockwork Orange, because I don't quite 'get' the movie, maybe the novel would help. (as IF...I read the first sentence and I was lost. Maybe it's the cockney rhyme? Is Burgess british??)

There are two things that I can't control myself with: Books and body treatment products (am a sucker for Body Shop)..hahaha! I LOVE being a girl!

Masih 'menantangi' skripsi...yah, saya lamban...pembimbing saya tak peduli, dan saya tak peduli dia tidak peduli. Harusnya ga gini sih...tapi yaudahlah, sepertinya memang harus bersolo karir sampai lulus :)


Lalu hidup gw mau dibawa kemana? Lebih tepatnya diapain?
Gw mau gw bisa hidup dari passion gw...that is the life to envy, I think.
Tapi apakah passion gw?
...bingung deh kan...
I'm interested to many things to be honest...reading, writing, books, music, cooking, driving (yea, gw mau jadi pembalap kalo gw bisa). Tapi you can't be good at everything...lo harus fokus aja ke yang bener2 lo cintai dan kerjain. Udah.
...hmmm..padahal gw ga terlalu pengen ngerencanain hidup gw...tapi apakah dengan begitu gw bisa sukses? Coz I wanna live the GOOD life, siapa sih yang ga? Tapi itu tergantung apa definisi dari 'good' itu sendiri...buat tiap orang beda2...I haven't found mine yet.

Gila jadi twentysomething tuh ribet ya...gw ngerti banget maksud lo, Jamie Cullum ;)

Sometimes I look around and found some people really having it good...stuff just come to them, and the stuff are the stuff that they love. Ini apa maksudnya, Tuhan??
You are your choices...and your effort. Somehow gw jadi mengambil kesimpulan kalau makin susah pilihan yang lo ambil, you'll turn out better one day.

Mungkin berdasarkan hipotesa asal2an ini gw memutuskan untuk nyekripsi...hahaha!
Apa banget deh! (nulis buku 50 hlm tuh kayak gini ya rasanya...nyeeeh)

but, really, seriously, gw mau bisa bener2 hidup dri passion gw. Karena kalau pun bakalan berat, ya gw akan just keep on pushing, because knowing that I'm doing what I love made all the effort worth it, dan gw rasa ga akan ada penyesalan yang berarti sampai gw ga bisa bangun lagi and push forward :)

So, what about you?
(Yaa kalau rancu model gw...liat nanti aja deh, gw juga belum tau. I'll let you know if I find out)


Oh, Oh! I just found this new awesome, super creative game: http://www.bored.com/game/play/273/Causality_.html
It's called Causality, it's free. Your whole objective is to kill ALL the Stickmen without the other Stickmen watching. I got addicted...sumpah!

It's Just LIke RPG!

untung gw udah mandi...dari tadi rasanya bauuu banget...

and i just realized it's been a while since i posted and well...the tables had turned since then. The tables had turned too many times and then spun into many directions so everything laid on top of it is thrown away and spilled, and dropped, and broke, and twisted, and...yea, you get the picture.

maybe this is how it feels to be 21. If you're legal for booze then you're up for some more. Maybe this is why 21 is the legal age for booze...and other maturely stuff. Coz it's definitely doesn't get any easier.

Funny thing is i'm the kind of person who could find myself in pretty bad situation but simply justto hazed to do anything about it. Which is NOT a very suggestable (is this even a WORD?) thind to do. I hope you're far better off than me, and if by chance i'm somehow better of than you, then i'm sorry for being too whiny.
What with all the graduate thesis hullabaloo...wondering why i decided to did this in the first place? what am i trying to achieve?
people don't ask about it at work (later). And it's such a straining chore to do. My cousin said she still didn't understand why she did it before and shy she's a bout to do it again now, with her Magister degree.
what are I and my friends are trying to achieve?
some said they just wanna be in college a bit longer...well not me. Definitely.
maybe we (or to be safe, ME) is trying to leave a mark on this enormous, confusing world. By writing a book of research. Well at least my name is registered in a catalog in a library somewhere, though maybe nobody would know, but I would. And that's good enough for me.

Is leaving a mark THAT important?
It's hard enough as it is. Society demands so much of you. A simple human being, who apparently found yourself wound up in this space created by complex-but-rare human being.
it's confusing. I don't get it. Growing up is tough.

but then it's a tough world. Tougher than you can imagine, I always told. So i guess we should all toughen up. Besides, no good games are getting easier by the level. Not even stupid games like Dora the Explorer or Strawberry Shortcake.
so maybe this is i'm trying to say: it gets harder...but it'll worth the prize. You'll get better treasure, or better power-ups, better equipment, better cash. It's like a yin-yang thing, I think. Perfect balance. You're never under supplied. Everything with its own proper time and place :)

So maybe i'm gonna get something sweet (even though it's just self-satisfaction) if i finish this. I just hope it won't take too long and there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow :)


and do you sometimes find your brain to be over-capacitating? (i'm keeping on making up words)
and there ought to be a subject called 'Human Interaction and Relation 101'?
i'd love to attend the class. At least then i'm prepared.
and do you realize how this human-to-human thing sometimes DO takes most part of your brain that it ended up ruining other things? or simply make your head ached?

dan dosen gw bilang manusia dulu bisa bikin piramid dan semacamnya karena mereka make otak mereka sedikit lebih besar dari kapasitas yang kita pake sekarang (which is 10%)?
make sense sih...i mean, orang jaman dulu punya banyak waktu untuk berpikir. Banyaaaaak banget. They don't have TV, or BB, or whatever.
dan mungkin if you managed to use your brain more, you could do these awesome things!
i mean...mungkin orang-orang seperti penyihir atau semcamnya, do exist dan mereka orang-orang yang berhasil meng-harness fungsi lebih dari otaknya so they come off as...magical.

fair enough sih...kenapa sekarang udah ga ada orang yg percaya gituan? because of science or simply we reduced or usable brain capacity? or am I just stupid for asking these questions...

dan mungkin semua...everything that i got myself into (even though i can't quite recall HOW), adalah kado jangka panjang dari kehidupan. Thanks for bracing me up for 22 later man (let's hope we get there)!
You are your choices and so...I've made mien and I'm sticking to it, though it's hard enough to MAKE the (what you think as the) RIGHT one, let alone STICKING to it. I just hope there's a pot of gold at the end of this jumbled-rainbow, for you and I :)

(every) Friday I'm In Love

Mau tidak mau, suka tidak suka, saya merasa HARUS post lirik ini di blog saya...karena Robert Smith itu jenius dengan menciptakan lagu dengan judul yang juga jenius dengan isi yang jenius juga :D
Well, here goes:

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Oh, Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

I don't care if Mondays black
Tuesday, Wednesday - heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday, you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday - watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a sheik
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday, I'm in love

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love



(kepada dan untuk pengelana Ciledug)